It was really the most stressful week of my life. It feels like i am hanging on a cliff where there is noone, not even a single entity ready to catch my back when i fall down. it seems like an eternity. a never ending whirlwind of emotion that dazzle my whole character and twirls the inner part of me. God forbid. i almost killed a person because of the anger.. no not anger... such a mild term for what i feel... its wrath.,yes it is. So hard to define, way beyond the meaning of the word. Friends from the industry pity me so much. Looks at me, gives me hope with every caress they give. I know...MANY PEOPLE ARE LAUGHING AT ME RIGHT NOW. DISGUSTED. AND MAY COME TO A POINT THAT, INDEED, THEY WILL JUDGE ME AS EASY. Human nature at its best correct? Who never sinned? Who's clean?! show me! and then let her/him cast the first stone and i will even give him the pleasure of hitting me with me with another. all i wanted was to make this thing perfect, YES I BELIEVE THAT NOTHING IS PERFECT. But at least, the best that i can do is try. But why ruin it? Why? U are probably laughing at me right now. The best thing that you can do is understand my disposition. But problem is, i am the type of person, who has difficulty airing his side. That's why, this situation really depresses my system... I lost 4 pound in 4 days. How affected can i get. I just hope that we can work things out smoothly. I have to work hard for it. I have to coz i never wished to put a period to this almost perfect relationship.